I want to write a review of the MDMA session I had with Roman.
I’m writing this review, a month after the session. Since it was important for me to track and analyze my changes not on the background of euphoria and high vibrations, but in a normal everyday state.
I can say for sure that this session made a huge contribution to my transformation. I have something to compare it with, and I have a base against which I can analyze the quantity and quality of my changes in just one session.
The most important thing for me was that I managed to fall into the subconscious, bypassing the defense mechanisms (mdma dissolves them safely during the session) and to meet with my unconscious, with my unconscious fears, with my inner child, with my parts of my personality, which all this time were not realized by myself. I saw my traumatized, embittered child beating hysterically. I had the impression that the child was in such a terrible state all this time, and there was no access to him. Rather, I didn’t even recognize this traumatized resentful part. The difficulty is that it is so deep and thin layer of the psyche, that in the usual mode (psychologists, hypnologists) is very difficult to reach. It’s because of the defense mechanisms that won’t let you in. I know what I’m talking about, as I myself was trained in Gestalt therapy for several years, and visited a psychotherapist for a total of 2 years. It all works, BUT, the speed and depth of penetration into the lower layers of the psyche is not the same. MDMA gives healing to those traumatized parts of the psyche that you and your guide focused on during the session.
Yes, MDMA session is definitely not a panacea, will not change your life in a week, not a pill for all woes. But it is definitely one of the most worthy tools on the road to unpacking yourself. And yes, there is bad news, you will have to work on yourself, grow, transform, accept, change, all this will have to be done by yourself. And psychedelics are excellent and fast helpers in this case.
Roma, thank you very much for your sensitive and careful guidance of the session. In therapy with psychedelics the sensitivity and delicacy of the guide/therapist is very important, and you successfully possess them🙏❤️